Those Crash and Burn Times

Last time I bloged I told you a little about cute 14. The boy who read my blog fromt to back and probably knows it better than I do because of it (some of those posts I haven't read since I posted them). Well after spotting this cute thing at a Lesbigay party, I took a bit of interest in him, but didn't think anything of it since he is young and a bit out of my league. Apparently the guy also took a bit of an interest in my and started the normal gay ritual of e-stalking, thus finding out all he can from the net about me and with my internet profile it is not to difficult. That is also how he got to my blog. After reading my blog he took an even bigger interest in me and decided to ask me out on a date. I got the invite right after the Kelly concert and said that I would like to go on this date with him. Of course I was scared shitless, here is a 18year old guy with the balls to ask out a 24 year old guy on a date. So over the Loki induced weekend we chatted on gtalk and mxit. The more we chatted the more excited I got about this date of ours. The closer it came to the day of the date the more giggly I got. I was like a 16 year old girl being asked to go to a matric farewell.

The day before the date I randomly met him and his one friend after invigilating a test. They really wanted to see the Lab, so I took them to the department and gave them the grand tour. Not much to see but hey...

On the night of the date (Wednesday) I went home early to get ready and to start the full gay grooming ritual. He PICKED ME UP!!! Yes, after having a bf for 2 months that I had to drive after, it felt nice being driven to a date (not that S.Mxit and I ever went on dates). The whole date went well, he told me that a reason he asked me on the date was because of what he had read on this blog and that he also felt like he can get/have sex any time with whom ever, but that he wanted a realtionship. I was falling for this guy hard. I slept over but nothing happened, well not much. I struggled to fall asleep. I guess I am still not used to sleeping next to someone. Though I must say it felt so nice holding someone and being held by someone again (and the fact that he has such a nice bed!!). Any who, the next morning he took me home and I was on such a high!! He was a bit strange on the online, but I just though it's because he did not get enough sleep.

For the next 2 days I sms's him a few times and I think I might have smothered him a bit like I always do with people. On Friday evening before his test I sms'd him asking when can we see each other again an if he was up to watching a movie on Tuesday or might want to meet up on Sunday, when I got a sms saying: “ill let you know, ok? I need to do some thinking”, my face dropped. I knew exactly what was coming. I asked him if I was smothering him and he replied that it was not that and that he know he said that it is what he wanted, but that commitment was a bit daunting right now and that he does not think that he would be able to give his all in a relationship at this time, and that it might be easier if we were friends and take things from there. Though disappointed, I do understand, he is still very young and even though neither of us really wanted age to be a issue I think it might be. Not the fact that there is a few years difference between us, but that he is at the age where he should be exploring all he can, not be stuck in a relationship with a 24 year old guy who is (hopefully) in his final year of varsity and had his varsity scores.

I think I was on a bit of an emotional high when He told me he needs time to think so I think coming down from that high was a bit of a crash and burn situation. I told him that I would really still like to be friends with him and we agreed that we would be. So if I can be friends with someone like Mr. P then I can just as “easily” be friends with 14. He said that it went well with the test on Friday but not so well with his test on Saturday. I'm trying to give him some breathing room for now. Will give you an update later. Wonder if he will still go jogging with me? Should I even ask him? Though I guess he might read this blog... Any thoughts?

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Those Loki influenced Times

Since I now have my own website I think I should post more often. I will do a few posts on both queery.co.za and on blogspot until the website is completely up and running. It still has a few bugs that I am struggling with, but I hope to have it all fixed in a few weeks.

Back to updates:

Last weekend was a long weekend and I got invited to drive with Mr.Metro to Mossel Bay. It was a spur of the moment decision on my end, since he asked me the Friday afternoon. I went home at about 5 and had a little while before he would be in Stellenbosch, so I decided to take a 30 minute nap. I woke up from that nap with a huge head ache. Mr.Metro arrived and we decided to drive the N2 way to Mossel Bay instead of our usual route through the tunnel. So on the N2, right before Sir Lowrys Pass, we hit a traffic jam because of the road works. After getting out of the jam, we were still in quite a bit of traffic, which was expected since it was a long weekend. Before getting to Riviersonderend a rabbit runs out from the bushes to our left, though we tried to evade it, striking it was unavoidable. We then stopped at Riviersonderend for a smoke and to check out the damage to the car. There were no damage that we could see and after Mr.Metro's last drag on his rolly, we decided to head off again.

Less than a km after Heidelberg we saw the bakkie in front of us drive over a dead buck. We couldn't avoid it and had to try and go over it ourselves. We were probably driving 100km/h by that stage. A few km later the coolant light went on and we knew there was trouble. We kept watching the temperature gage like a hawk. When it started rising we were looking for a place to pull over. Standing next to the road with only 1L of water we tried poring it in to the coolant reservoir but it was just draining out as we were poring it in. At least it was cooling the engine as it was going through. After the engine was cool enough we drove (more like freed) the car all the way to Riversdale where we had a better look at what had happened. We saw that we would not be able to drive like that all the way to Mossel Bay so Mr.Metro called his brother to drive through and tow us. While waiting I saw an Engine garage with a Wimpy. Walking in we saw that it had already closed at 8pm. Should have known in such a small town. Asking the shop attendee if we could at least get some coffee she told us that it is broken. Seeming like to world was against us that night we sat down in the closed wimpy drinking cold drinks we bought at the shop, When You Say Nothing At All by Ronan Keating were playing in the background, after a while we noticed that the song would get stuck at a certain part and start over. I swear in the 15 to 20 minutes we sat there, it probably started over 15 to 20 times!!! Eventually we decided that the music in the car would suit our ears much better. Eventually Mr.Metro's brother arrived and towed us to Mossel Bay, but not without going through a road block!!!

The rest of the weekend was Loki free, thank Zeus!!! Mr.Metro's brother fixed the car (putting back the pipes and stuff). There weren't too much damage so we the car was fine to drive by Saturday afternoon. We went fishing off of the train bridge at Grootbrak and didn't catch anything, though Mr.Merto went deep see fishing the next day and caught a couple of stokvis which we ate that night. I must say his mum makes a mean fish!!! Any who, the air-con was still broken when driving back, but that was about the only bad luck we had on our way back.

Blog Moved

Hi guys, My blog is now moved, I am still working on it but feel free to go to www.queery.co.za and check out the progression.

Blog is moving

Mr.Metro is helping me place my blog on his server under my own domain. In layman's terms, we are moving. The url will soon be www.queery.co.za

Will let you know when it is done!!!

Those I dumped him times

I haven't updated in a while and I think it is time (and a few people have been asking for it). A lot has happened since my last post. I left S.mxit the week before valentines day. It just was not working out. In our 2 months together we saw very little of one another and even though this should not be an issue in a relationship, I think that is not a good way to start one. I also tried really hard to get him to meet my friends and come out with us. My friends are my everything. He never got to meet most of them and I never met any of his. If there is one thing I do not trust, it is someone who does not have friends i.e. someone who that cannot form relationships. Any way. So now I am in a position where it has been a month that I am single and still I do not know what I want at this stage. Do I now want to play a bit or see if I can find another BF. I know people always say that as soon as you stop looking, you will find a guy, but I don't think so. I was alone for 4 years before I started dating S.mxit and I now know why. For the last few weeks I found myself with an empty scrotum. Yes, the reason I am single is my own fault. I lack the balls to have one. At pride I saw this really cute boy, we were eyeing each other but my lack of testicles prevented me from walking over and starting a conversation.

Why is it that I can stand in front of 200 students and give a lecture on where Lesbigay fits in to the Stellenbosch society, but I cannot go up to one person and say: “hi, what's your name?”. Maybe it is because I don't have to deal with them on a one on one basis, but then again I have so many friends!!! Ok, so I made all of them through other friends, but why do I always make friends. What is the difference and why can't I figure out that formula. As proven before, with S.Mxit that is, that picking up strange men on Facebook is possible, but not the best idea for a relationship.

Moving on. I have been told that I make people cry with my blog, so some happy news. I won tickets to go see Kelly Clarkson at the Grand Arena. It was fabulous. I really enjoyed it. The only bad thing was that we could not smoke inside the venue. But I really enjoyed myself. I took Skinny from the lab with. He kept making weight related jokes about poor Kelly, but he said he really enjoyed it as well.

Like Katherine from Greek likes to say: Moving on...

I am still living with the parental unit and Da Bits (aka the Bitch), so my living arrangement is still bad, but breathable. Pride was fun, no score though. I've seen some awesome movies the last month or so including, Up in the sky, Alice in wonderland, It's Complicated and Blind sided. They are all awesome.

Speaking of awesome. I met this cute 1^st year at the Lesbigay Red Party. He is 18 years old, but looks 14, thus he will now be referred to a 14. 14 is about 6 years younger than me, and drives in a PT Cruiser (the gayest car), which is the same car that drove me to my Martic fair-well. He has read my whole blog, from the last post to the first!!! he now knows more about me than 800 of my Facebook friends! But he found my blog, he is friends with me on facebook and he askes for my gaydar page, so he really knows a lot!!!!

Ok enough for now. I will try to do a Those Hotties blog real soon!!!

Those updates

I am officially in a relationship with S.mxit, yes I have a BF for the first time in 4 years. There are some "hick-ups", but what is a relationship without a few obstacles. At the moment he is living in table view with his uncle, how isn't so cool about us being together, so we can't do anything at his house, my house is out, except when the parental unit is not there. But still we can't sleep over anywhere. Though that will be solved since he just landed a job as a GM of a hotel in Sea Point. Congrats Honey!!! So he will be living in sea point from next year some time. Hick-up 2: he does not have a license or a car, but if I could help Hag2 get her license, then I can help him as well. My pockets are very low and I am not gona ask him for petrol money all the time (not that I have yet). any who. He is sweet and funny and I really like him.

Dad got the job and is actually working 4 days a week then heading off to Mossel Bay on Fridays to sell his security stuff. so life is looking better.

Tell you more later ;-)

Those bad mood day's

I am in such a bad mood. Got told today that I haven't been working hard enough the last 2 months. Which is true to an extent. I've been feeling very very lazy, but that is not the only reason, there hasn't been money to do what I want to do. Every single one of my experiments does cost a lot of money. But like Skinny from my lab said, the money is not our problem. But still being told that my last R3000 of my grant money will be taken away if I don't start working pissed me off a bit. So if you see me today, just nod and smile and move away in an orderly fashion without making to many quick movements.

In other news, it's DJ Tech's engagement party this Friday. I asked S.mxit to go with. He was very hesitant at first, but then he agreed to go with. So the first friends group he will meet is the straights that include DJ Tech and Mr. Metro. Don't think Fur-Face will be there. Think they will get along. Hope so...

Got some new tekkies this weekend, so I am thinking of jogging this afternoon. Not sure about this wind though.

Will do a Hotties blog later this week. Hmm.... who to choose...